Because I feel like writing to my best friend or The Meaning of Goodbye

So maybe my blog is not the most private place to do that. So what?
My brother leaves for prepa classes in britain (french britain. Its not famous but it exists.) in Rennes in august (that or hongkong. Please, no.). My sister leaves for china in a few months. And I'll be... alone? which is odd, you know, because I was alone during a year and it wasn't so... ominous. I've said it so many times, its easier to leave than to be left behind. And, at the same time, remember that cd you gave me, Melinda? Friends. And there's a song that says "it starts with goodbye".
How many things in my life have started with Goodbye? Practically everything. Every change that I've known. And is it so wrong? Goodbye isn't a good thing, is it? Not to most people. Not to me, even. You'd rather things start with hello than goodbye, right? Except people who say hello are legion. There are so many of them, wherever you go. Hello is the polite thing to say when you're the new guy. How many people say hello to you and forget your name as soon as they turn away? How many people say hello to you and aren't even thinking about you, aren't even looking at you, because, all in all, what do you represent? Let me tell you. More or less nothing. You're a face in a sea of faces, some known, some not, a voice that blends in with the surrounding noise. How do I know? Come on, everybody knows. Everyone is like that. When you say hi to someone you don't know, admit it. Most of the time, if they aren't a cute guy, do they even matter? Of course not. They're not people. At best, they're a change, at worst, they're an annoyance because you'd rather be doing something else. Don't get me wrong, I'm not attacking anybody. It isn't wrong, and yes, friendly people do exist, but okay, my point is, what is the meaning of hello? a potential beggining. Maybe, just maybe, the start of a beautiful friendship, huh, Querida? But most often? Hello is nothing. I would rather count the number of goodbyes I have received than the number of hellos.
Who says goodbye? The people you know. The people that said hello to you and actually came through. And aren't they so much more important? The ones that are sad to see you leave. The ones you are sad to see leave. And those goodbyes mean everything. When someone you love says goodbye to you, you remember it. There's an ache, in your heart, in your head, and there's hope and pain and sadness. The french word for goodbye is "au revoir". Want to know what it means? It means "to seeing each other again". And that... that is what's important. Goodbye isn't always an end. Always a beggining, that marks a different stage of life, but not always an end. When you say goodbye, there's hope, because the world? it's a small place. Someday you'll see some of the people you left again. Not all. But you can pretty much tell yourself that the people you never see again, you weren't meant to. The people you never see again don't mean all that much. They were important, at one stage of your life. And if you never see them again, if they don't go out of their way to see you or you don't go out of your way to see them, you don't need to. Some people say goodbye as an end. Others see it as a beggining. Others still see it as a hope. Its all of those things, I say. The best thing, the worst thing about goodbye is that you never know what it will bring.
The hellos in my life? I remember very few of them. But I remember every single goodbye from the people I love. And maybe that's not a good thing. Maybe you think its a negative way to think, a negative way to see life and its people. Me? I see it as people that cared, people I cared about. I see it as beautiful memories, painful memories, but better to feel pain that to feel nothing at all. And that's another subject.
So to those I said goodbye to, really said goodbye, please remember that you were mine. You were those that said hello to me, that I said hello to, those that meant something. You are those that I remember, those that made Goodbye a beggining.